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An Old Woman’s Boobs

Life is truly like an old woman’s boobs.

Sometimes they’re in the sky and sometimes they’re lying basically on the ground. Right now my life is all over the place. And I just can’t really understand what the F is going on. I mean.. I was about to kill myself for few months ago and then I hit the rock bottom where I understood that even death wouldn’t be a solution because I knew that I would reincarnate and come to this shitty weird ass reality again.. So why even bother, right? If I have to do this, I could might as well try to do this the first time (even though its probably not my first life, lol.. I kinda know that.. cause I’ve meditated and went to my previous life, but ok.. that is a different story)

No one could tell, right? A happy girl..

No one could tell, right? A happy girl..

That could spare me some time, few lifetimes.. Thats silly, Daiga.. the time does not exist for universe.. even if it would, it definitely does not mean shit to universe, because it cares only about EXPANSION and trying to figure out what it is through weird ass experiences, like human life on Earth. I’m sorry guys.. It seems its so hard to stay on track here.. As I said ” all over the place”.
Aaaaanyway.. So yeah.. Then 4 days after my 22nd birthday on August the 6th, I pay 250 EUR to this Horvatic woman who is one of Teal Swan’s Completion Process practicioneers. I know, you think that it is insane. Well being dead inside is not fun either. Its not like I had any value for anything at that time. And money was no exception. I had to at least try. And I did. It was ground braking!!! I could never EVER imagine that such a simple process can literally change you in an instance. But I did not expect anything less from a process that was put together by Teal herself. After all, she is the wisest person that I have ”seen”. All her teaching have been a big help and a deep understanding about me, my life and others around me, and the source itself (Universe, God.. or u can call it whatever u want). That day I got rid of my self blame for good! This was liberating! And I mean self blame to a degree that I truly believed that I don’t deserve to walk on this Earth. And that is just the tip of the iceberg.
I will forever remember that day! It will soon be 3 months already and I have not had any suicidal thought (like a genuine one) ever since. And it is not like I am trying not to think about it or something.. NO – I truly don’t feel that way about myself and my existence any more. ^^ Since then I have done the Completion Process (CP for short) several times on myself. I could have saved those 250 EUR and learned to do it myself, but I just didn’t want to wait. I think I will go into details about CP some other time.

So now… I have put some IMPORTANT pieces back to my being (oh, you know, nothing special.. JUST FEELING OK WITH BEING ALIVE WITHOUT WAITING FOR THE JUDGEMENT HAMMER TO HIT ME) and I have more energy, I have more positive thoughts and I am just ready to finally move on with my life and take the next step. The problem is – I don’t really know what that is. Also the marriage is a struggle right now, which makes things a bit more complicated. I feel a bit stuck, a little bit afraid and just uncertain about how I should proceed here. I want to take control, but I don’t know where I want to turn the wheel to. I guess I’m waiting for the Universe to show me the way that I absolutely DO NOT want to take, as it always does 🙂 She is thoughtful like that. Only in darkness can you understand what light is. I guess this is the inspirational quote for Universe 😀 I also use it though.

Peace out,
Carrottee Bunnay
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Prizier, right?

Prizier, right?

 

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All or nothing

I have decided to make several posts today. And I feel like starting with the topics that are more philosophical and creative. Always when I have not been writing here for a while I tend to write a list with the highlights that are important to write about. So I guess I will dive right into it:
First thing that I want to write about is ”PRISCA THEOLOGIA”. I found a video which is actually divided into 2 parts and is a lecture in a university, I guess. So if you are a person who is constantly trying to understand more about the universe I recommend you to watch these:

And if you have not seen spirit science talking about human history I will put a link right here as well:

https://datorslieka.wordpress.com/2014/03/03/interesting-stuff-on-spirit-science/

I know that these videos are quite long but lets be frank – there is nothing short and fast about our history and how everything sums up, so I expect only the ones who truly seek answers to watch both videos. Expand your horizon. I did and its amazing.

There was a time when I was convinced that Christianity is the answer to everything. You know the holy book is great, if you have read it you cannot deny its value, but there is this sentence in the bible Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” So I kinda of talked to God in my mind as in a prayer and said ” I know that all I have learned about Christianity is great and the idea is also great, but when I watch some videos ( at that time it is was spirit science’s all videos) I just have this feeling that this makes so much sense and so knowing the fact that Hebrew was a complicated language, I always had the feeling that the things we read in the bible are not what there is to see, but that there is a bigger picture that people refuse to see due to holding on too tight to modern Christian dogma. So I said to God ” Sorry that I am researching and reading about the things that make sense to me, but you have said that I can seek and then I will find..”  Actually the fact itself that God does not want me to expand my knowledge does not make sense! If so.. then it is not the God that I want to believe in. So I began my journey and I found mind blowing information. I have gathered my hole picture for now form spirit science, Teal Swan and Prisca Theologia. The only thing that I am not sure to agree with is what the man who talked about prisca theologia says:  that Jesus was not a real person. I lean more towards what Teal have said, that Jesus was a real person, and he had achieved high level of spirituality including the fact that he was an alchemist and at that time Jesus tried to show every body that ”The God is within you” and as he was talking about it and doing miracles people were not open to the idea enough and so they understood that Jesus must be the God himself. And you know where this has lead to today. People still believe that there is a person that will set them free and so on. But it is not the Jesus himself, it is you who create everything that there is. And in Prisca Theologia videos you can also learn interesting information that there was a deeper meaning behind the stories in Bible. I felt so happy when I actually found facts that support my theory that there should be a bigger picture.

And there is, so enjoy! 🙂

 
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Posted by on September 13, 2015 in Spirituality and experiences

 

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