I think I am ready today for a longer post than lately ;D
You can put this in the background.. 😀
First of all, in my last few posts I have been talking about my depression, my illness and the fact that I don’t want to study.
Well, for more than a month (If I’m correct) I no longer study at Riga’s Technical University. It may sound bad but I have good news – It doesn’t to me! 🙂 I feel much better now that I have time for myself, for my thoughts, my health and also God. It is the hardest decision I have ever made because it is not what everybody would do and also a lot of people may simply not understand this because it seems not mainstream. And it definitely isn’t. But.. It was MY DECISION (I don’t scream it out loud with anger, I say it with rather smile on my face) and that is what I needed – A path of my own. It didn’t seem right.. and it was enough for me to stop and think about this. I prayed God to help me deal with this.. and He did help me. My mother and my whole family, in fact, supported me (which was very important) because it would be very hard to live my life knowing that they are disappointed or somehow unsatisfied. I did it and I don’t regret it. 🙂 I have time to see what is happening around me and I can hear my heart telling me the things I love. It feels like a blurry picture that is being clarified. 🙂
So some of you may ask – what are you doing then? What is your daily routine?
Well, first of all, my aim wasn’t to jump from one stressful routine to another. I just wanted to have a STOP.. to have the chance to look at my life and see where I am going with this and why I am loosing my mind over something. But in the meantime I didn’t want to do absolutely nothing. So I find my own pace of doing things. So now I continue to work as a English home teacher and I have seriously taken on learning Norwegian. And while we’re on the subject.. I had an idea to post grammar and other things I learn here and put it under ”Norvēģu valoda (NORSK)” category but I won’t do it unless there are few people that really want me to do that. So this one is up to you. Leave your opinion in comments or write me personally. 🙂 Okay.. so what do I do other than this? I enjoy the ”little things” in life. I put it in quotation marks because I actually things of them as the the Big and Important things! ^^ Things as helping my parents, seeing my friends, playing with our dog and cat, loving my soon to be husband and praying.. a lot.
Today I had the first experiment with my wedding hairstyle. Agita (our wedding organizer and hopefully Kaspars’s brother’s girlfriend) recommended me Agnese (the hairdresser) and today we met. We bought some daisies (not real of course) and white pearls.. also black metal wire for my hairstyle. So we made curls and then we just tried different things. But I really liked that we put 3 daisies in the back (all hair are basically down) and we made like .. strings with white pearls that came from the daisies as if they were little stars. I won’t have wedding veil so we wanted to make something nice ourselves. I would put some photos but I still have the feeling as if I should wait until the wedding is over ;D Sorry! 🙂 We will meet again on the 25th of April to dye my hair and then on the 28th of April to have the last experiment for hair and also to put the make up on and see how it looks.