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Welcome The Tornado Travellers Inside Your Heart

I have finally got it!

PURE POSITIVE FOCUS

TAKING AN INSPIRED ACTION

These are the 2 things that I keep in my mind throughout the day.

-Pure Positive Focus-
When something unpleasant happens we tend to keep drowning in the negative focus. It feels like it takes over and you have no control. It seem impossible to think any good thought. But what you should do is to let go and give yourself into that negative feeling. And I mean – stop trying to make it go away or tell yourself that it is so bad to feel this negative emotion and that you SHOULD feel this and that instead… This will literally throw you into a negative spiral and it does not take long to end up in hopelessness and eventually depression. So when you feel negative emotion JUST STOP! And let yourself feel the anger or sadness with mindfulness, with awareness and curiosity even. Because the emotion DOES NOT DEFINE YOU. Listen to it as If the emotion is like a messenger (which it is) and you honour it as a guest into you house. As a foreign traveller – so you want to be open and really listen to what it has to say. Validate it. If it is here so it has a value! This will literally feel like a relief. I could talk more about this topic in greater detail and also actual steps that you can take to move into more positive vibration. Just remember -you cannot jump vibrations. It means a person who feels completely hopeless cannot make himself feel pure hope and excitement just like that. You go gradually. Always. Consciously or unconsciously. Here is the emotional vibration scale:

Emotional Vibration Scale

But talking about pure positive focus – you can always shift your focus to feel better when you focus on things that you are really happy about. I have a personal example – I felt really shitty going back to work after being sick because I had lost the motivation to work (Also actually the reason why I was prone to getting the virus in the first place). So I felt horrible. I could not work effectively because I did not see the point. I was just fed up. And I tried to distract myself with music and so on.. But it just kept coming back. At one point I felt simply paralysed because it was literally a war zone inside of me and I was pulling myself emotionally to the opposite directions. Then I watched Teal’s video which actually talked about key of happiness – Pure positive focus and taking an inspired action. And then I just accepted the feeling of being fed up and disappointed. I took time to understand and accept the traveller inside of my heart. I still felt shitty about the work but I felt a big relief. Suddenly I wasn’t running against a tornado. At that moment it felt as a good time to shift focus. So I took a pen and a paper and started to write the things that I was truly grateful for in that moment (You are not trying to tell yourself to feel grateful, you actually want to feel that way). It could be anything. Usually it is the easiest to write about the small things – small, easy but they do the trick. So few of the things I wrote – ” I feel happy that I am sitting alone and listening to music and no one is bothering me with request that I would not want to respond to. I am grateful to have this moment to myself and being able to sit with my emotions because they matter to me.” ”I feel truly grateful for not having to work a job where I have to wear a uniform and pretend I am happy when I am not (I was thinking about my previous job at the casino).” And you can continue as long as you can and want. But the shift happened – I felt like I was controlling the tornado and it was carrying me into a future that I felt optimistic about, even a bit excited. I was really proud of myself. Especially because I used to live in these negative spirals all the time where I would drop so low as powerlessness/depression/guilt etc. Anyway – my focus changed – it now was a pure positive focus. I ended up going home feeling quite all-right and the next day I got good news that made me genuinely feel motivated about work again!

Tornado Love

Tornado Love

-Taking an inspired action-
This was a big struggle for me.  I have always ignored my needs. I have lived my life just to please others – friends, family, teachers and so on.. Without even really realizing it. And sometimes I got really angry and wanted to stand for myself but at the end I just blamed myself for being so selfish. Our society exalts sacrificing. Hate it. Worst. Thing. Ever. This is reason why I conditioned myself and made myself believe that there is something WRONG WITH ME if I have my own desires and If I follow my dreams, needs and wants. I never really had anyone by my side who would be like ” Go Daiga! Chase your dreams!” It was supposed to be parents who inspire you and stand behind you no matter what. Yeah well.. Not in this time and age. They are dealing with their own problems and consequences from their parent’s fuck-ups (Everyone is). I healed my severe self-guilt with Completion Process (Read more about it here) (And on Teals website) and now I am actively learning to listen to my heart. When I suddenly get an inspiration or get excited about some idea or activity I take responsibility for it and make sure I follow it – this is taking an inspired action. It is important to differ this from feeling urged to do something – this is the opposite because it comes from a negative space and so it yields negative results. Last few years it had been very hard for me to take inspired actions. I still tend to tell myself all the reasons why the idea is not that good or maybe too ambitious or something. Basically my mind is trying to find all kinds of reasons and excuses because it thinks that I will somehow get hurt by following my desires. The funny thing is – The purpose of life IS TO FOLLOW YOUR DESIRES, WANTS AND NEEDS. And always prioritize your life by YOUR OWN values and live in accordance with them. If you don’t – you will find yourself feeling bored, discouraged, given up and you will try to seek distractions in food, porn and video games etc. because it is painful to think about the fact that you are not following your heart. And your heart will keep reminding you its desires throughout your life, but as you listen to it less and less, it becomes more and more silent almost impossible to hear. I did not say anything new, right? Yes, but the thing is that most of us don’t really get the meaning of this or choose to ignore it because its painful.  People usually understands this when they are 40. Suddenly they have a newsflash that they hate their life because they have been making the wrong decisions – not for themselves but in favour of others. And it is a bit harder to become that world famous painter when you have a mortgage and a stressful career at some fancy world corporation and every aspect of your life has been made in order with the fake life that you are living. So I have chosen not to wait for my mid-life crisis. I am in my twenties and want to make it right – live a happy life by following my desires right now.

Mind and Heart

Mind and Heart

Heart: I really want to drive to the mall !!!!
Mind: Are you serious? It’s Wednesday evening and the shops close in 2 hours!
Heart: But I just want to have fun and buy some Christmas gifts for friends and family. Maybe have a cup of tea in a cafe..
Mind: There is a lot of time to do that another day. And you have a lot of teas in the kitchen. Why do you want to pay for a cup of tea there?
Heart: I don’t know…. I just thought that it could be a fun way how to spend this evening and the thought of it makes me feel very excited. You know how much I love to walk through shops and look for interesting gifts..
Mind: No! Not today! Go wash some dishes and work on your project or something! And make a tea!
Heart: But..
Mind: NO!
Heart: Um…
Mind: Dishes and tea!
Heart:…..

I wish everybody to have the COURAGE to say YES to the heart!

Be happy – Watch this awesome video on Teals channel.

Carrotino Burratino

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An Old Woman’s Boobs

Life is truly like an old woman’s boobs.

Sometimes they’re in the sky and sometimes they’re lying basically on the ground. Right now my life is all over the place. And I just can’t really understand what the F is going on. I mean.. I was about to kill myself for few months ago and then I hit the rock bottom where I understood that even death wouldn’t be a solution because I knew that I would reincarnate and come to this shitty weird ass reality again.. So why even bother, right? If I have to do this, I could might as well try to do this the first time (even though its probably not my first life, lol.. I kinda know that.. cause I’ve meditated and went to my previous life, but ok.. that is a different story)

No one could tell, right? A happy girl..

No one could tell, right? A happy girl..

That could spare me some time, few lifetimes.. Thats silly, Daiga.. the time does not exist for universe.. even if it would, it definitely does not mean shit to universe, because it cares only about EXPANSION and trying to figure out what it is through weird ass experiences, like human life on Earth. I’m sorry guys.. It seems its so hard to stay on track here.. As I said ” all over the place”.
Aaaaanyway.. So yeah.. Then 4 days after my 22nd birthday on August the 6th, I pay 250 EUR to this Horvatic woman who is one of Teal Swan’s Completion Process practicioneers. I know, you think that it is insane. Well being dead inside is not fun either. Its not like I had any value for anything at that time. And money was no exception. I had to at least try. And I did. It was ground braking!!! I could never EVER imagine that such a simple process can literally change you in an instance. But I did not expect anything less from a process that was put together by Teal herself. After all, she is the wisest person that I have ”seen”. All her teaching have been a big help and a deep understanding about me, my life and others around me, and the source itself (Universe, God.. or u can call it whatever u want). That day I got rid of my self blame for good! This was liberating! And I mean self blame to a degree that I truly believed that I don’t deserve to walk on this Earth. And that is just the tip of the iceberg.
I will forever remember that day! It will soon be 3 months already and I have not had any suicidal thought (like a genuine one) ever since. And it is not like I am trying not to think about it or something.. NO – I truly don’t feel that way about myself and my existence any more. ^^ Since then I have done the Completion Process (CP for short) several times on myself. I could have saved those 250 EUR and learned to do it myself, but I just didn’t want to wait. I think I will go into details about CP some other time.

So now… I have put some IMPORTANT pieces back to my being (oh, you know, nothing special.. JUST FEELING OK WITH BEING ALIVE WITHOUT WAITING FOR THE JUDGEMENT HAMMER TO HIT ME) and I have more energy, I have more positive thoughts and I am just ready to finally move on with my life and take the next step. The problem is – I don’t really know what that is. Also the marriage is a struggle right now, which makes things a bit more complicated. I feel a bit stuck, a little bit afraid and just uncertain about how I should proceed here. I want to take control, but I don’t know where I want to turn the wheel to. I guess I’m waiting for the Universe to show me the way that I absolutely DO NOT want to take, as it always does 🙂 She is thoughtful like that. Only in darkness can you understand what light is. I guess this is the inspirational quote for Universe 😀 I also use it though.

Peace out,
Carrottee Bunnay
xD

Prizier, right?

Prizier, right?

 

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Find Your Shadows

Sometimes I cannot even grasp the teachings and enlightenment that I have learned and experienced by watching Teal Swan’s videos. I’ve been watching her videos for more than a year now and when I look at myself back then, I realize how much I have changed. The things that I have achieved. She talks about the things that I and everyone on this earth can relate to. No one could help me the way that she did. She gave me the chance to really understand what is going on in my life as well as in my internal world. One of the most valuable things that I’ve learn is shadow work and core beliefs. We all go on in our lives hiding behind our true emotions and our true selves.. What is more.. we do not even notice it and even if we do sometimes notice it.. we just don’t know what to do with .. those emotions.. 

I warmly recommend everyone of you to watch this latest video but do not just stop there. If you see something that catches you eye, go ahead and watch it. Because this video is like learning about adding in maths.. but if you stop here.. you will never (hopefully later.. not never ) learn about multiplying and other great stuff in maths.

A small devil on Daigas shoulder: Great job Daiga.. really? Maths? Was that the best comparison you had? You know that like half of the humanity hates maths, right?

 

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I sink I sink in the sink while sinking about sinking in the sink

Ok, so there is no meaning behind that title 😀
Just so you know.. Latvians often pronounce ”think” like ”sink” and so you can probably notice where it is meant as ”think”..
This is just what my smart husband just said. 😀 It is quite funny!

So you know.. I dag er fredag og jeg er hjemme fra jobben nå.  (don’t scratch your head – just google it! )

I have finished my first work week. So what do I think about my new job?   IT IS AWESOME   !!!!!!
Where do I start? The building is absolutely gorgeous! I love that every floor has open offices with windows from bottom until top.. not to mention the lovely view I have when I am in a lift going to the 8th floor where my temporary desk is. While we are on the subject – I got the desk next to the window! Okay.. so I have the biggest desk a person could have, a fancy chair that you can adjust in every way you can imagine, two big screens and I can drink hot chocolate for free like every 5 minutes!! ( of course I don’t do that because that would not be professional and productive ). I love the fact that we are learning Norwegian everyday for 3 hours and the people.. gosh…they are so friendly! 🙂 AAAAnnnd they serve delicious food in the canteen – it is very important that I can have a proper lunch at work!
So for me it is a major upgrade in every way!

From the casino that doesn’t have even one decent window I now have castle of glass.

Before I tried to take something healthy and delicious to work but now it is already there and warm without the microwaves!

People here are actually professional about everything they do and they still maintain their friendliness – this one I can feel a lot! (the difference) I don’t hear anybody complaining.. EVER!

I don’t have to sit in one posture all day – which makes my back feel great at the end of the day.   And other things I am yet about to discover : )))))))

It also turns out that after 3 months I am going to Oslo for one week. Neat!!! 🙂

Jeg snakker ganske bra norsk nå. Jeg synes at norsk er veldig interesant og jeg skal være flink i norsk. Jeg håper dere har det bra. Tusen takk.. Ha det!
Glad Gulrot! 🙂

 
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Posted by on January 9, 2015 in Everyday Life

 

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Hugh Jackman answers ”What is God?”

In this part Hugh really well summarizes the answer to the question ”What is God?” in a way that I can totally agree with him and see why he is saying that. Check it out! The world is waking up 🙂 And leave your thoughts and experiences in the comments 🙂

 
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Posted by on December 15, 2014 in Spirituality and experiences

 

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Question Everything… right?

So today I would like to share with some good videos.
For nearly a year I have been listening to different spiritual teachers (not so much the religious teachers) and recently I have really started to think about changing the diet which would mean to exclude all animal products. So basically veganism. To make such a decision I really needed more to know about this. Because in our culture there are so many lies that have been told so many times that people do not even question it any more. I also intend to have family in near future so I also have to think about the diet that would benefit the baby. And then there are sentences that come to my mind: ”Milk gives you calcium”  OK. But can’t you get it from somewhere else? Sure you can. ”Meat gives you protein.” OK. But can’t you get it from somewhere else? Sure you can.  And so this continues.. not to mention the fact that you are also consuming unnecessary contents. I had a lot of questions but very few answers. So here was a great video that explained more about the nutrition:

And you know it also seems fair that you don’t eat your pet as well as other animals. Because… where is the difference? Culture? But that is not enough. I am not getting crazy about this…. eating animal products…it just do not make sense any more not only from a moral perspective but also when it comes to nutrition. And the best way to make sure about something is try it yourself right? So far it seems a healthy path to take.. just have to get familiar with all that and find new recipes. So I will let you know more about this when I will have mapped everything out because I eat A LOT of dairy 😀 So I actually have to change a lot of products that I buy.

Another thing that I would like to talk about is vaccines. I have not been curious about them the same way I have not been questioning the food industry… as I said ” A lie that has been told so many times that it becomes the truth”. The ultimate question is  if there is no proof that the vaccines actually prevent from getting a virus.. then WHY THE F*** ARE EXPERIMENTING LIKE THAT? Wouldn’t it make more sense to know what we are doing here? This video is quite long so I guess only really interested people will watch the whole thing.

I am really concerned about the way we do things on earth. Everything is so destructive..  I would like to see a information age that tells the truth! I would live in a world where people can eat what they want and they know why. And when it comes to vaccines.. the fact that you are mandatory to put chemicals in your baby and yourself is just absurd. Freedom? That is an illusion. People should be allowed to make their decision about anything when it comes to their own body and life.

I am just trying to comprehend the world that I am living in and the best way to live for myself. Question everything, please! Question also me and this post. Find your own truth and your own path! 🙂

 

 
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Posted by on December 12, 2014 in Lifestyle and Choices

 

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Do You Read Books?

If you read books.. that the only really important book you should be reading right now is ”Astral Projection: Amazing Journeys Outside your body” by Abhishek Agarwal. It think I might mentioned it in some post before, but I read it all.. Now I am continuing with Far Journeys” by Robert A. Monroe.

You may ask why? Well.. here is why:

As I have said in the past – I want to explore Astral World and really make sure if this is true that we have our second body (Astral Body, Light Body.. whatever you want to call it ) that continues after death and can not be harmed. So I started with reading about it. The basic stuff. And I started to try getting out of the body few months back. Simply when I had the time for it. When its quiet. When I have slept well. And during the day, because I felt more safe that way. Why should I feel scared? Well, dear readers, as you know we fear all that is unknown. And that truly was the case in the first months.. but last few attempts were quite calm ones because I knew more.

And now lets cut to the chase – I had a progress today. Actually the one and only progress since I started.. because previous ones were just some small observations.

Before I went to sleep I made some affirmations in voice to myself. I can do this. I have a second body. I want to explore. I will have and OOBE today. 

And I guess it played its part. Finally I understand what ”vibrations” mean. You can feel that vibration/buzzing sound and you feel it through your body. I heard some voices talking although it was just me and my husband in the room. I think I might met my guide – it was this presence .. a happy one. Especially when I was having vibrations and light feeling in my body. AND… I really now know what catalepsy means! I saw the room with astral eyes and I really could not move. Then I took some deep breaths and then I saw everything from my body eyes and I could move my fingers, then arms and then I got up… and tried to grasp of all the things that happened.

And this is only the beginning! I want more! I want answers! I want to really meet my guide and finally know why did I come back to live on the earth. What is my goal here?

Anyway.. people… you should really consider that all this might be true. Since all this… I can not look at this life as before. I know that this all is just an illusion! And it makes me smile, because I know that there is something more than this struggle for happiness. I feel more calm inside and all the materialistic things don’t matter that much any more because I know that there are some real values you should be chasing. That is why I followed my heart and left school and now I am trying to find the way that is still yet to be discovered by me.

Happy Carrot

  More and more everyday 🙂

 
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Posted by on August 14, 2014 in Spirituality and experiences

 

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