This Monday (6th October) I finally met my nephew – Valt. He is only 3 weeks old and he is very cute. That day there were I, my mum and my sister and of course Valt 🙂
And we made a baby bath. Anyway I really want to see him again soon 🙂
And now I’m looking for a new job, nothing special.. just something that will keep me going in my Norwegian (financially) and something that I can do and not feel like dying inside ;D (Yeah.. doing the same thing literally every 2 minutes for 8 hours and 20 days a week.. can be a little bit frustrating)
Today Sunny and Haley will get their second pill to get rid of the worms and we will separate them for the night while the serum for fleas gets absorbed in their fur. We can’t keep them together because they like to lick each other a lot and they can get diarrhea doing so.
Today I want to share with you some valuable information that will definitely change the way you look at your relationship.
The best thing you can do is to find this book and read it: Gary Capman ”The Five Love Languages”
You may not be aware that you speak in one of five love languages and if that is true, you should find it out. And what is more important – you should let you partner know what your love language is because chances are that he speaks completely different language. This is why so many relationships and marriages end… MANY people feel that ”they do so many things for the other person but somehow your partner does not respond or tell you that he does not feel your love”. This is because of your different languages. You have to learn to speak in your partner’s love language. It may be hard for you to understand it, but you will see how your partner changes because he/she feels loved.
We all act differently when our love tank is full. Fill it up!
I have not been to classes for more than a week now. The thing is that I really don’t want to. First of all, I’ve been fighting depression for a few years now and every time it comes back, it gets stronger – that’s a proven fact.. So I simply don’t want to stare at how I destroy my life and relationships with other people.. So I surprisingly took my first step – I found an audio book about depression and it is called ”The Mindful Way Through Depression’‘. I am in the middle of the book now. It really made me look at depression from completely different point of view.. but what helped me even more.. was doing the things I want. I stayed home, I helped Kaspars, I took on embroidery, wrote blog, visited my parents and enjoyed the nature. These are all the things that I WANTED TO DO. So I did, and I felt happy again. When I feel depressed it isn’t just unhappy.. it’s even worse – I don’t care about the things I should. I simply don’t want to exist.. It destroys everything! When I look at my life I understand that everything is great and I should be the Happy Carrot, but I can’t make myself feel that way. It’s sad and unfair.. especially to Kaspars. This is why I can’t go back to doing those things that make me feel miserable and my life – pointless. And I mean.. I don’t see how the bachelor’s degree can get me a job and make me happy. It can’t! Because if I really want to learn programming.. I should start doing it by myself. But all I can think of is ” what will my parents say? What will my friends say?”. I can make my own decisions but I am afraid to make a mistake as we all are..
But then again – what mistake? The biggest mistake is to waste your time on the things you don’t want to do. When my parents are gone and friends living their own lives… there won’t be anyone judging me except myself – I will be judging myself for the things I didn’t do. I have different values in my life – money definitely isn’t the first one.
I want to be happy, alive and energetic. I want to find a way I can feel happy. I want to do the things that help me and my family. And I want that ”doing” to help other people. I want to live and never regret anything. I want to experiment with my life by following my heart.
As some of you may now.. I usually write posts this late when I can’t sleep. Bingo! This is not an exception. My stomach is a balloon, it is hot inside, I feel sick, I am afraid.
My mom showed me our relatives “Rostoks” and I helped her to find few people on the Internet. I have very close relatives living in Iowa and Omaha. We contacted one of them, hopefully, we get a response. And also it would be nice to have a place to stay if Kaspars and I ever decide to go to the USA.
I am gassed up.. Maybe tomorrow I will go out and fly up in the sky. If I manage to get to space.. Weeeelll.. That’s perfect. It means vacuum. It means that I have the oppurtunity to live my life without the air in my stomach. ( let’s not talk about the real circumstances..ok? ) Ignorance is bliss. Just for this one day.. This one.. Day..