These are the 2 things that I keep in my mind throughout the day.
-Pure Positive Focus-
When something unpleasant happens we tend to keep drowning in the negative focus. It feels like it takes over and you have no control. It seem impossible to think any good thought. But what you should do is to let go and give yourself into that negative feeling. And I mean – stop trying to make it go away or tell yourself that it is so bad to feel this negative emotion and that you SHOULD feel this and that instead… This will literally throw you into a negative spiral and it does not take long to end up in hopelessness and eventually depression. So when you feel negative emotion JUST STOP! And let yourself feel the anger or sadness with mindfulness, with awareness and curiosity even. Because the emotion DOES NOT DEFINE YOU. Listen to it as If the emotion is like a messenger (which it is) and you honour it as a guest into you house. As a foreign traveller – so you want to be open and really listen to what it has to say. Validate it. If it is here so it has a value! This will literally feel like a relief. I could talk more about this topic in greater detail and also actual steps that you can take to move into more positive vibration. Just remember -you cannot jump vibrations. It means a person who feels completely hopeless cannot make himself feel pure hope and excitement just like that. You go gradually. Always. Consciously or unconsciously. Here is the emotional vibration scale:
Emotional Vibration Scale
But talking about pure positive focus – you can always shift your focus to feel better when you focus on things that you are really happy about. I have a personal example – I felt really shitty going back to work after being sick because I had lost the motivation to work (Also actually the reason why I was prone to getting the virus in the first place). So I felt horrible. I could not work effectively because I did not see the point. I was just fed up. And I tried to distract myself with music and so on.. But it just kept coming back. At one point I felt simply paralysed because it was literally a war zone inside of me and I was pulling myself emotionally to the opposite directions. Then I watched Teal’s video which actually talked about key of happiness – Pure positive focus and taking an inspired action. And then I just accepted the feeling of being fed up and disappointed. I took time to understand andaccept the traveller inside of my heart. I still felt shitty about the work but I felt a big relief. Suddenly I wasn’t running against a tornado. At that moment it felt as a good time to shift focus. So I took a pen and a paper and started to write the things that I was truly grateful for in that moment (You are not trying to tell yourself to feel grateful, you actually want to feel that way). It could be anything. Usually it is the easiest to write about the small things – small, easy but they do the trick. So few of the things I wrote – ” I feel happy that I am sitting alone and listening to music and no one is bothering me with request that I would not want to respond to. I am grateful to have this moment to myself and being able to sit with my emotions because they matter to me.” ”I feel truly grateful for not having to work a job where I have to wear a uniform and pretend I am happy when I am not (I was thinking about my previous job at the casino).”And you can continue as long as you can and want. But the shift happened – I felt like I was controlling the tornado and it was carrying me into a future that I felt optimistic about, even a bit excited. I was really proud of myself. Especially because I used to live in these negative spirals all the time where I would drop so low as powerlessness/depression/guilt etc. Anyway – my focus changed – it now was a pure positive focus. I ended up going home feeling quite all-right and the next day I got good news that made me genuinely feel motivated about work again!
Tornado Love
-Taking an inspired action-
This was a big struggle for me. I have always ignored my needs. I have lived my life just to please others – friends, family, teachers and so on.. Without even really realizing it. And sometimes I got really angry and wanted to stand for myself but at the end I just blamed myself for being so selfish. Our society exalts sacrificing. Hate it. Worst. Thing. Ever. This is reason why I conditioned myself and made myself believe that there is something WRONG WITH ME if I have my own desires and If I follow my dreams, needs and wants. I never really had anyone by my side who would be like ” Go Daiga! Chase your dreams!” It was supposed to be parents who inspire you and stand behind you no matter what. Yeah well.. Not in this time and age. They are dealing with their own problems and consequences from their parent’s fuck-ups (Everyone is). I healed my severe self-guilt with Completion Process (Read more about it here) (And on Teals website) and now I am actively learning to listen to my heart. When I suddenly get an inspiration or get excited about some idea or activity I take responsibility for it and make sure I follow it – this is taking an inspired action. It is important to differ this from feeling urged to do something – this is the opposite because it comes from a negative space and so it yields negative results. Last few years it had been very hard for me to take inspired actions. I still tend to tell myself all the reasons why the idea is not that good or maybe too ambitious or something. Basically my mind is trying to find all kinds of reasons and excuses because it thinks that I will somehow get hurt by following my desires. The funny thing is – The purpose of life IS TO FOLLOW YOUR DESIRES, WANTS AND NEEDS. And always prioritize your life by YOUR OWN values and live in accordance with them. If you don’t – you will find yourself feeling bored, discouraged, given up and you will try to seek distractions in food, porn and video games etc. because it is painful to think about the fact that you are not following your heart. And your heart will keep reminding you its desires throughout your life, but as you listen to it less and less, it becomes more and more silent almost impossible to hear. I did not say anything new, right? Yes, but the thing is that most of us don’t really get the meaning of this or choose to ignore it because its painful. People usually understands this when they are 40. Suddenly they have a newsflash that they hate their life because they have been making the wrong decisions – not for themselves but in favour of others. And it is a bit harder to become that world famous painter when you have a mortgage and a stressful career at some fancy world corporation and every aspect of your life has been made in order with the fake life that you are living. So I have chosen not to wait for my mid-life crisis. I am in my twenties and want to make it right – live a happy life by following my desires right now.
Mind and Heart
Heart: I really want to drive to the mall !!!! Mind: Are you serious? It’s Wednesday evening and the shops close in 2 hours! Heart: But I just want to have fun and buy some Christmas gifts for friends and family. Maybe have a cup of tea in a cafe.. Mind: There is a lot of time to do that another day. And you have a lot of teas in the kitchen. Why do you want to pay for a cup of tea there? Heart: I don’t know…. I just thought that it could be a fun way how to spend this evening and the thought of it makes me feel very excited. You know how much I love to walk through shops and look for interesting gifts.. Mind: No! Not today! Go wash some dishes and work on your project or something! And make a tea! Heart: But.. Mind: NO! Heart: Um… Mind: Dishes and tea! Heart:…..
I wish everybody to have the COURAGE to say YES to the heart!
Sometimes they’re in the sky and sometimes they’re lying basically on the ground. Right now my life is all over the place. And I just can’t really understand what the F is going on. I mean.. I was about to kill myself for few months ago and then I hit the rock bottom where I understood that even death wouldn’t be a solution because I knew that I would reincarnate and come to this shitty weird ass reality again.. So why even bother, right? If I have to do this, I could might as well try to do this the first time (even though its probably not my first life, lol.. I kinda know that.. cause I’ve meditated and went to my previous life, but ok.. that is a different story)
No one could tell, right? A happy girl..
That could spare me some time, few lifetimes.. Thats silly, Daiga.. the time does not exist for universe.. even if it would, it definitely does not mean shit to universe, because it cares only about EXPANSION and trying to figure out what it is through weird ass experiences, like human life on Earth. I’m sorry guys.. It seems its so hard to stay on track here.. As I said ” all over the place”.
Aaaaanyway.. So yeah.. Then 4 days after my 22nd birthday on August the 6th, I pay 250 EUR to this Horvatic woman who is one of Teal Swan’sCompletion Processpracticioneers. I know, you think that it is insane. Well being dead inside is not fun either. Its not like I had any value for anything at that time. And money was no exception. I had to at least try. And I did. It was ground braking!!! I could never EVER imagine that such a simple process can literally change you in an instance. But I did not expect anything less from a process that was put together by Teal herself. After all, she is the wisest person that I have ”seen”. All her teaching have been a big help and a deep understanding about me, my life and others around me, and the source itself (Universe, God.. or u can call it whatever u want). That day I got rid of my self blame for good! This was liberating! And I mean self blame to a degree that I truly believed that I don’t deserve to walk on this Earth. And that is just the tip of the iceberg.
I will forever remember that day! It will soon be 3 months already and I have not had any suicidal thought (like a genuine one) ever since. And it is not like I am trying not to think about it or something.. NO – I truly don’t feel that way about myself and my existence any more. ^^ Since then I have done the Completion Process (CP for short) several times on myself. I could have saved those 250 EUR and learned to do it myself, but I just didn’t want to wait. I think I will go into details about CP some other time.
So now… I have put some IMPORTANT pieces back to my being (oh, you know, nothing special.. JUST FEELING OK WITH BEING ALIVE WITHOUT WAITING FOR THE JUDGEMENT HAMMER TO HIT ME) and I have more energy, I have more positive thoughts and I am just ready to finally move on with my life and take the next step. The problem is – I don’t really know what that is. Also the marriage is a struggle right now, which makes things a bit more complicated. I feel a bit stuck, a little bit afraid and just uncertain about how I should proceed here. I want to take control, but I don’t know where I want to turn the wheel to. I guess I’m waiting for the Universe to show me the way that I absolutely DO NOT want to take, as it always does 🙂 She is thoughtful like that. Only in darkness can you understand what light is. I guess this is the inspirational quote for Universe 😀 I also use it though.
Shame, shame, shame… 8 months without writing… but its better late than never, right?
I’ll try to sum everything up in few posts but brace yourselves cuz it may come in more than 2 😀
Since I was a little kid I’ve dreamt about having a car. I thought that it would be awesome to have a cute tiny car that I can drive with without having to get a driver’s licence. A car that I could use to go to places and it would go just as fast as a bicycle. Sometimes grandpa would let me into the garage and sit in his red Lada VAZ. And I would close my eyes and imagine that I am driving it from that garage to my parents’ apartment. I would image every bumps and every corner and how I would need to turn the wheel accordingly. I even once tried to build a little car myself (needless to mention that was not a successful attempt). And so it was a very important and sweet dream of mine to have my own car. Since February I and Kaspars were trying to find a good used car. We were going through advertisements basically everyday and there were few cars that were really good but there always was a ”but” or a little ”nah-ah”. It was May already and I we had completely lost hope to find something decent and then we decided to go to Volkswagen salon and take a look at some reasonably priced new cars or used one. I was very interested in VW Jetta because it was almost as awesome as Passat but it was not that expensive but the car would really be just a vehicle then.. no extras.. nothing. Then we saw VW Passat B8 (2016)and of course it is a completely different car. And it had nice extras.
Random photo from internet with the car the we loved
Kaspars loved it, so did I, but.. The price… 30 000 EUR. The guy who was showing us the cars was a friend of Kaspars and he told us a lot of things and also a way how I could get a discount for 5 000 EUR. That made us think. A great bargain right? Hell yeah!We got home and got excited.. so there was no time to waste because the summer was coming and my dream was still burning hot! So then one thing happened after another and 17th of May (Norges nasjonaldag by the way) we drove home with our little cute Passat:
It is the first time in my blog history that I miss a month (several, actually.. 4?) of writing my blog. But I feel like a winner because a lot of things have happened since the last post and just in the direction I would want them to. So I will be coming back and adding one or few more but this one will be about me trying to do an experiment :D:D
So.. If you want to know what it is and how it can help your health, I recommend reading a book ”The Amazing Liver and Gallbladder Flush” by Andreas Moritz. Even if you have not had any liver or gallbladder problems that you know of, the author has explained human digestive system in so much detail that you will be amazed and thinking: ”How could I possibly be reading this only now?” This book helped me to understand how important it is to clean ones colon. Even if you have relatively regular bowel movements, it does not necessarily mean that you have a clean colon. The junk food that we eat, especially meat, take a lot of time to congest and can linger there for too much. This is also the case if you eat lunch and after an hour you are taking a snack and so on through out the day. This means that the digestive system has not finished digesting the lunch but you are already putting something else in and therefore has to abandon the lunch which starts to putrefy and a lot of times if not all leads to bloating and toxins being absorbed back into our blood stream and the liver, which affects the bile production. This lunch may become very dry and stick to the walls of the large intestine. You will get the the same effect if you eat a lot of processed food which usually is low in water and fibre and is harder to break down in the large intestine. Many people with constipation problems now that fruitsare the best ting to eat if you want to get a bowel movement. They are high in water and fiber. (By the way, meat does not contain any fiber and our digestive system is really trying very hard to get it out.) Anyway.. this is only one thing that contributes to formation of gallstones. You can read about other factors in his book or in his youtube channel (in the post below).
My experience:
This Monday I began my preparation for the flush by drinking 1 litre of apple juice a day. Half an hour before or 2 and a half hours after eating. I was drinking apple juice 6 days. And I could eat anything except meat, dairy, fried food (I had some fried food though) and there was one condition – the food and the drinks must be warm or at least in room temperature.
On Friday I had a colon cleanse at the nearest colon cleanse practitioner.
On Saturday (yesterday) I drank a litre of apple juice right after waking up. Then I ate lunch ( basmati rice with steamed vegetables) at about 12:00 and after 13:30 PM I was not allowed to eat anything but water.
At 18:00 I made a jar with 720 ml water and 4 tablespoons Epsom salts and divided that in 4 portions and drank the 1st portion.
At 20:00 I drank the 2nd portion.
At 21:30 I did an enema to initiate bowel movement.
At 21:45 I squeezed grapefruit juice out (3/4 glass) and mixed it with extra virgin olive oil (1/2 glass). Shake it for about 20 times.
At 22:00 I was standing next to my bed, drank all the olive oil mixture. And lay down in the bed with head higher than the stomach. I was laying quietly for 20 minutes and then I fell asleep.
At 0:52 I woke up nauseated but went back to sleep.
At 1:58 I woke up again but could not sleep because I felt very nauseated. Went to the toilet, had some bowel movement and then I vomited a lot of the grapefruit juice mixture. Then I felt good ;D And slept the whole night til 6:00.
At 6:00 I drank the 3rd portion of epsom salts.
At 8:00 I drank the last portion of epsom salts.
Now it is 08:56 and I am running to the bathroom every 20 minutes and there are coming out several green gallstones that are mostly formed of old bile and also sand-like powder (from calcified stones) that sinks. I was surprised that I vomited because I did not think that it was the part of the plan because I did everything by the book. Then I looked it up and I actually find explanation in Andreas’s book:
Feeling Sick During the Cleanse
If you have followed all of the directions given in the outlined procedure properly but feel sick sometime during the actual liver flush, please don’t feel alarmed that there is something wrong. Although rare, it sometimes happens that a person may vomit or be nauseated during the night. This is caused by the gallbladder ejecting bile and gallstones with such force that it shoots the oil back into the stomach. When the oil returns to the stomach, you get sick. In such an instance, you may be able to feel the expulsion of stones. It will not be a sharp pain, just a mild contraction. During one of my 12 liver cleanses, I spent a miserable night. But despite throwing up most of the oil mixture, the cleanse was just as successful as all the others I had done (the oil had already done its job, that is, prompting the release of gallstones). If this happens to you, remember that this is only one night of discomfort. Recovery from conventional gallbladder surgery involves many more months of pain and suffering as the scar tissue mends.
So the cleanse was successful because there are stones coming out but I hope that the next time the oil will not come back in my stomach so much that I have to puke it out.
AAAND.. On Tuesday I have another colon cleanse scheduled. It is very crucial to clean out the large intestine after the liver flush, because some stones may stay in the beginning of the large intestine and they are not so easy to get out with enema.
I have to do these cleanses at least 6 times. And I can be sure that my liver and gallbladder is clean only when the last 2 times there is nothing coming out. So I will keep the series going :D:D
Btw.. I found out about this when I watched Teals video about acne. Very good one:
If you want to know more about Andreas’s teaching and this cleanse, check out his channel (but the book is a must though): https://www.youtube.com/user/enerchiTV
I will add some photos of the stones. (It’s a pity that I decided to collect them in a jar only after my 3rd bowel movement 😀 but I will get my chance next time. I collected some though 🙂 )
HappyCarrotwith cleaner liver
AAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNDDDDDDDDDDD
Here is one photo of some of the stones. The ones that are brighter are a bit calcified around. But most of them are green and made of old bile 🙂
Gross.. I know! But there is no poop! 😀 Only stones. (Because I had not eaten almost a day at that time)
And so here comes the next post 🙂
This is more about me, my life today, my stands, beliefs and challenges.
I have planned to watch the blood moon together with supermoon ( http://earthsky.org/?p=51212 ) which is in the night of 27th to 28th of September. In Latvia it is 05:47 MAX. You can check time for your region and if it is possible to see it on the internet.
I turned 21 on the 2nd of August. It is a little bit strange to get older. 🙂 And I finally decided to get a tattoo. So 6th August I got this:
It is the flower of life inside of the 2nd chakra. 🙂 It cost me 160 EUR but I am very happy about it and perhaps I will make another one in soon future 🙂
So.. I am still trying to be vegan. I am fully vegetarian but I still have problems with finding the food without dairy. So to put in numbers : 100 % vegetarian and 70 % vegan. But I am feeling great and I am planning to go full vegan until my 22nd birthday which is kind a special age for me. We visited ”Fat pumpkin” and it was soooo delicious.
AAAANDDD one day I and my colleague.. we made this:
And I have one more challenge until my 22nd birthday which is to live each day asking this one simple question ” What would a person who loves themselves do?”
So basically I am learning to love myself. I hope that this will also help my marriage because last few months have been quite hard for us.
I am reading Teal Swan’s book ” Shadows before dawn” and it has been very helpful.. This is actually where I got this idea of using this question from. 🙂
I have also passed B2 exam in Norwegian, so I am quite flink now ;D This means that this month I am getting a salary raise ^^
And last but not least.. Vi er på jakt etter en ny bil 🙂 We are thinking about buying a new car, because it is so much less headache if you don’t have to repair the car that someone else has f***ed up 😀 So you will be hearing about cars in near future, hopefully 🙂
And some photos from Madona:
These sneakers are not mine but they were quite comfortable ;D
This butterfly has died a nature death. It was the first time for me to see a butterfly that has died peacefully.
I have decided to make several posts today. And I feel like starting with the topics that are more philosophical and creative. Always when I have not been writing here for a while I tend to write a list with the highlights that are important to write about. So I guess I will dive right into it:
First thing that I want to write about is ”PRISCA THEOLOGIA”. I found a video which is actually divided into 2 parts and is a lecture in a university, I guess. So if you are a person who is constantly trying to understand more about the universe I recommend you to watch these:
And if you have not seen spirit science talking about human history I will put a link right here as well:
I know that these videos are quite long but lets be frank – there is nothing short and fast about our history and how everything sums up, so I expect only the ones who truly seek answers to watch both videos. Expand your horizon. I did and its amazing.
There was a time when I was convinced that Christianity is the answer to everything. You know the holy book is great, if you have read it you cannot deny its value, but there is this sentence in the bible Matthew 7:7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” So I kinda of talked to God in my mind as in a prayer and said ” I know that all I have learned about Christianity is great and the idea is also great, but when I watch some videos ( at that time it is was spirit science’s all videos) I just have this feeling that this makes so much sense and so knowing the fact that Hebrew was a complicated language, I always had the feeling that the things we read in the bible are not what there is to see, but that there is a bigger picture that people refuse to see due to holding on too tight to modern Christian dogma. So I said to God ” Sorry that I am researching and reading about the things that make sense to me, but you have said that I can seek and then I will find..” Actually the fact itself that God does not want me to expand my knowledge does not make sense! If so.. then it is not the God that I want to believe in. So I began my journey and I found mind blowing information. I have gathered my hole picture for now form spirit science, Teal Swan and Prisca Theologia. The only thing that I am not sure to agree with is what the man who talked about prisca theologia says: that Jesus was not a real person. I lean more towards what Teal have said, that Jesus was a real person, and he had achieved high level of spirituality including the fact that he was an alchemist and at that time Jesus tried to show every body that ”The God is within you” and as he was talking about it and doing miracles people were not open to the idea enough and so they understood that Jesus must be the God himself. And you know where this has lead to today. People still believe that there is a person that will set them free and so on. But it is not the Jesus himself, it is you who create everything that there is. And in Prisca Theologia videos you can also learn interesting information that there was a deeper meaning behind the stories in Bible. I felt so happy when I actually found facts that support my theory that there should be a bigger picture.
June was quite interesting. We went to a wedding. It was really nice. We had some romantic moments especially in the car.
Then another day we drove to Madona with the same car (Which belongs to my father) and it had again problems with starting up. We ended up pushing the car while we were in the graveyard ;D Actually it was Kaspars and his grandparents who pushed the car, because I was driving. My first problems with a car. 😉
Last Saturday it was a teambuilding event for my departement. We had fun time and especially while climbing the thing which was called ”Vells” (translates to Devil). When I got up approximately 2 meters.. my heart started to race and I was in doubt and wasn’t sure if I could do climb any further. I just took some deep breaths and ended up climbing to the top. My colleague helped me a lot by shouting ”Daiga, you can do it!”.
And last but not least... Another attempt of mine to go vegan. Since June 16th I haven’t eaten any meat and I don’t know why but it has been very easy. So I have a feeling that I won’t bounce back to eating it again. But we’ll see of course. And there are other animal products. I haven’t bought milk in few months now although it was my favourite drink together with dinner. The three products that I find most difficult to cut out are sour cream, cheese and eggs. For me meat is the one product that I don’t want to go back because it makes me feel sad to eat a dead animal. The rest of animal products I just want to minimize as much as possible because they don’t have so many benefits. As I also don’t like these labels ”vegan” or ”vegetarian” or ”meat eater” I just call myself a person that avoids eating animal products.
Why am I doing this? I have to be honest here: It wasn’t the fact that someone is dying that struck me the most or made me think about what I am eating. Because I know that animals also have a soul and they still live on and we can see other animals eating each other in nature. So for me firstly it was Teal Swan who talked about so called ”spiritual diet”. Because I was and still am very interested in achieving OBE on regular basis and I wanted to make my body more alkaline so that it is more likely to happen. And I just understood how healthy it is to cut out animal products and how it could change my health for good. Later on it was Freelee the Banana girlwho can be quite harsh sometimes but I guess that that is what I like about her. She is direct and honest. I felt inspired looking at her body and knowing that she is doing all the right things regarding the diet and seeing her blending some fruits and repeating ” you can eat as much as you can! No calories restriction!” just made sense to me because I did not want to do that. She made me buy a blender, finally. Thank god! Now I can have my smoothies! So now when I think about meat and other animal products I also have this good feeling that no one has to get hurt because of me and this is a big bonus. So I see this as a win – win situation. I get my beauty, strength and health and animals get to live on. And I am not there yet to make other people think about going vegan as Freelee is doing this. I am happy that someone is doing this ;D But when it comes to me I just want to make myself feel good and when another person is ready to listen about this lifestyle I will be more that glad to share ideas. P.s. you can find both Teal Swan and Freelee on youtube. Oh and one more thing – after not eating meat and minimal amount of animal products just for 5 days I felt my skin go soooo soft. I didn’t know that my skin can be so soft! I am amazed! My acne is getting better and my intestines are feeling a lot better.
I have been trying go vegan for a long time and I also had a lot of doubts about protein which we can get from meat and dairy.. and it turn out that there are a lot of plants that can give you full protein. One of my favourite ones are buckwheat and amaranth. 🙂
And now photos and videos!:
My breakfast today 🙂
Yesterday: +31 C
My colleague tries to make me smile.
Teambuilding dinner – burgers! For me – peasburger ;D
I MADE IT TO THE TOP!
To make my workplace look more nice 🙂
Kaspars took a photo because he thought I look sexy
New bikini
Sandcastle
Sandcastle 2
Daiga happy on the beach
Fint, ikke sant?
The next day after our friend’s wedding
Rundales castle
Typical Latvia’s view
Hailey is pooping ;DDD
Happy carrot was very very sad but now she is trying to get back on her feet!
My breakfast today 🙂
Yesterday: +31 C
My colleague tries to make me smile.
Teambuilding dinner – burgers! For me – peasburger ;D
I MADE IT TO THE TOP!
To make my workplace look more nice 🙂
Kaspars took a photo because he thought I look sexy
New bikini
Sandcastle
Sandcastle 2
Daiga happy on the beach
Fint, ikke sant?
The next day after our friend’s wedding
Rundales castle
Typical Latvia’s view
Hailey is pooping ;DDD
